Running with kids sucks!

Yesterday I decided to be brave and take my kiddos on a little jog.  I needed exercise and out of the house or they were going to drive me nuts. 

I always forget why I don't just put them in the stroller and take off, until I get out there and it all comes back to me.  It is sort of like having a child...you are all excited and ready for the pain to see your beautiful baby, then once it starts you are asking yourself why you chose to do it again.  Then you take one look at their precious face and you forget all over again. 

That would describe my love hate relationship with putting the 60+lbs of kid in the stroller and running.  First, it is so much harder to run pushing them. Second, I have K asking me a bazillion questions and if I don't answer she just gets louder and louder.  Third, L only lasts about 20 minutes and then he screams and yells forever.

With all of that, I get totally frustrated during my run, but for some reason I still feel pretty good after so I'm sure I will forget how bad it was and do it all over again.  

Although, it may be a while because I was frustrated and thinking what the hell when BAM I rolled my foot all weird.  It isn't my ankle, it is like my inner foot.  I have done it before and couldn't run for a couple of weeks and I'm pretty sure it is going to be the same this time because for 2 days I have barely been able to walk. 

This sucks!  

It's been a while...

I have taken a break from blogging for a while, but not because I want to.  These summer classes are kicking my butt.  The kids are still going to school 2 days a week and I spend every second reading and taking quizzes and completing reading response questions.  I'm dying!!!  I don't know how I'm going to do it once school starts again and I have to work full-time.

I thought I would have plenty of time to exercise this summer and eat well, but it hasn't gone as planned.  I have been going to the gym for a good hour and a half on the days I do have the kids...it is best for them that I take a break everyday or I may strangle them.  Hahaha They have hit the lets yell and scream and hit each other ALL day because we don't know how to just play nice.  It is really challenging me to keep my cool and not to lose my patience.

So, that means I have been working out probably 3-4 times a week. My eating has been better, but not great.  I get so caught up studying when I don't have the kids that I don't eat until early afternoon and I'm sure that is killing my metabolism.  Therefore, my goal for the next 2 weeks it to eat regularly and keep each meal small.  I am going to be strict on my calories and try to stay under 1400 per day.  I know that seems like a lot, but I seem to not lose if I go under 1300.  I'm hoping for some progress because I've gained about 5 pounds since May and would really like to lose about 20 by my 30th birthday in December.  It feels a little weird to say 30...LOL!

Lesson Learned

I went for a run tonight (gasp)...I know it has been a while.  It felt great and I could have run more, but I decided to be brave and wear my running skirt without capris underneath for the first time.  BAD idea!

My fat ass can finally wear it without hanging out all over the place, so I thought what the hell, just go for it.  So I did and last mile was the most painful mile ever.  When I got to mile 3 my inner thighs were screaming at me because they were rubbing each other so hard they could have started a fire.  I was determined not to stop until I reached 4 miles so I ran the final mile with a wobble.  On the bright side, I still kept my pace and every time I saw someone I would run normal so that they wouldn't think I was crazy.  

Lesson learned....don't wear the running skirt unless there is something separating the massive thighs that jiggle and rub each other.  Now if only I can get myself up tomorrow morning and do some squats and lunges to get rid of them.

Meal Plan and a new challenge

Why does it take a little friendly competition to get my butt in gear?  Why can't I just do it because I need to and it makes me feel better?  It is because I am lazy and have been feeling all depressed and weird lately so I let myself slip and gain a little weight back.  Then once I started this vicious cycle of gaining and indulging on every little chocolate craving I have, it has been hard to stop.  

So what solution did I come up with?  A little friendly competition because, well, lets face it.  I HATE to lose!  So knowing that it would get me back on the right track, I proposed a wager with one of my friends at work.  She wants to lose some weight and so do I so what better way to do it, but together and at the price of mani's and pedi's paid by the "smallest" loser.  Not the smallest person, but the smallest percentage of weight lost.  We have until June 10th to see which one of us will lose the biggest percentage of weight.  All I can say is...she doesn't know what she has gotten herself into or I don't because she is very competitive as well : )

We came up with the wager and rules on Wednesday last week so she and I pigged out on Wednesday night as our final indulgence and then had our official weigh in Thursday morning.  I'm happy to report that since that morning I have already lost 3.8 lbs. Granted I gained about 2 the night before weigh in, but hey I'm on the right track and have done pretty well.  Lately, weekends have been really bad, but this one has been successful..even with a girls night at a mexican food restaurant .  It feels good. 

Meal planning has really helped, so here it is for this week...

Sunday-Buffalo Chicken and mixed veggies

Monday-steak and mashed potatoes

Tuesday-Apple-Chicken sausage, corn, crescent rolls

Wednesday-Chicken and fried okra

Thursday-Cheese tortellini and garlic bread

Friday- ??? Always up in the air 

Meal Planning

Here are some of my meal plans for the next week.  I'm still a little iffy on a few nights, but it is better than nothing.

Sunday-Grilling out(not sure what yet)
Monday-Baked Ziti with Spinach
Tuesday-Left Overs
Wednesday-Chicken Quesadillas with Beans and rice
Thursday-pizza
Friday-Something seafood...not sure yet

Should I?

I am in a big debate with myself and Chad on if I should go back to school to get my Masters in School Counseling.  There are lots of pros and cons to this decision.  So what do you think?  I will take all the advice I can get...

Pros:                                                         Cons:
More pay once graduate                          Costs money to go back to school
Still get time off during summer               It will be a little less time off
Still work with kids                                  It will be a stressful 18 months
Have time to work on projects                  Hard course work (i.e. writing papers)
Online Program                                        Online program

I am really struggling, but I do want a change. I'm being extra picky about this change because I really want summers off to spend with my kids and just an overall break.  I know that I can't have my cake and eat it too, but maybe I can?.?.It will be a really tough 18 months, but it is only 18 months.  That is not that long and the last semester is an internship.  What to do, what to do.  The deadline for the program I want to do is May 11th and I would start in June.  Yikes!  I have to submit everything like today.  Should I...What do you think?
                               

Weigh in

So after the crawfish boil on Saturday my eating was pretty horrendous on Sunday. I was so tired and didn't really feel too great. I ate lots of carbs and drank 2 sodas. I never drink sodas! So I did not weigh in on Monday because I forgot. Seriously, I did, I promise. So my weight today was 153...pretty much exactly where it has been for the past week and a half. Oh well, I have not been feeling great lately. I really think I may be going through a little bit of a depression funk. I need to snap out of it but I just can't seem to. I really want a change for next year. I like my job, but something new would be exciting and closer to home would be awesome so that I can spend more time with my kiddos. I will just trust in the Lord and pray for the best. This is going to be a good week. My eating has already improved...