T Minus 30 days

We have finally hit the 30 days until our cruise point.  I am so ready to relax, feel the sun, and have a blast. Since we booked our cruise, last July, I made some goals: a) to wear all bikinis(not tankinis) b)to FEEL good in them and c)to put in lots of effort to get there.

I can easily throw on a bikini, but feeling good in them is most important.  I have always been self conscious about my body even when I was 125lbs.  My brain/eyes automatically see the worst parts of my body and completely focus on them.  I also convince me myself that everyone else is staring at them as well.    

BUT I'm not going to let it happen this time.  

I am going to be confident.  

I am going to rock this 30 year old, 2 babies body.

Since it is just around the corner and I have only had NSV, I have stepped it up a notch.  

I told my husband last week that he can just prepare for salads every night for dinner.  He didn't refuse so I'm going with it. I think he secretly wants to lose a few lbs before we set sail.   

We ate a salad every night this week, except Tuesday.  

I worked out every day except 1 and I have had a little progress on the scale. 

I was stuck bouncing back and forth from 149-152 for a few weeks, but as of this morning I am 148!  

So excited.  

I don't want to screw it up and go back to the 150's, like I've done a couple times in the past 2 months.  I usually screw up on the weekends, but not this time.  

I even went to a party last night and didn't over do it.  

Can we say victory?

Today is another challenge because my friend is having her gender reveal party for her 2nd baby at a mexican food restaurant.  

I must stay away from the chips, salsa, and margs.  

 They are my downfall every time.  

Overall, I'm thrilled to see some scale movement and I'm going to continue in hopes of losing some more in the next month.  

The tankini and one piece will not win this time.

Game on!